Okay, so I am over my tantrum from last night and should probably abstain from writing blog entries at 3 am to avoid bratty diatribes... Thanks for the support, guys. I knew you would understand.
I have taken a semblance of control today. I have banished myself to my bedroom. When I finally woke up this morning (10 am, YAY sleep) I went downstairs and gathered food, my laptop, & phones and headed back up to my room. Now, granted, the food I gathered is not necessarily my top choices, or well, all that healthy, but makes it so I depend on no one else to make me something (I may change my mind when it comes to eating cold chef boyardee from the can later today).
My self-imposed banishment also makes it so that I am not cranky with anyone else. It's hard to watch my house being run differently than I would normally do it. I have been trying to take a backseat with the girls so as to reduce stress (reduce contractions) but that hasn't really worked. I think it may have been adding stress... to see situations handled so differently than I would... to see things/behaviors ignored that I feel really should be fully mitigated. I am by far the more strict parent, and Doug's Mom is even less strict than he is. I don't like being considered strict, but I also really feel that children require a certain amount of structure (that does not include allowing them to eat 10+ pieces of Halloween candy per day especially when one has a tendency to crash into an emotional wreck from too much sugar when the levels start to drop off and the other bounces off the walls for hours with even small amounts of sugar... think: Hammy on Red Bull in 'Over the Hedge').
I have to admit, though, more than anything today I would like to be out shopping for baby gear or possibly Christmas presents but know I should not, and do not have the stamina for it anyway. Instead I will keep my cranky self in my room and play really inane games on facebook. Ben doesn't seem to mind; he's kicking around like a little mad man in my belly today.
Staying Centered at Christmas
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2 comments:
There's always online shopping... just blame the approach of Christmas. :)
Glad today is looking better.
I was going to suggest internet shopping, but Dianne already did. Damn.
You can at least "window shop" that way. (Get it, it's a pun). Ok, I'll shut up now.
You sound like you've got a good plan. Solid.
I can understand your concern. I'm more strict about the important stuff while Andrew's more strict about stuff that should just be ignored. Go figure.
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